QUESTION MEME

[adharma]

OK I BROKE 30K I AM ALLOWED.

For Acedia, Aeris and Alexiel.

I also NPC Sleeping Beauty, Cheshire Cat, Dream and Three of Three and will field questions about them as well, though I retain the right to ~ * spoilers * ~ not answer.

ASK ME THINGS. I will be picking at this for at least a week +A+!

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[righthandsmoke]

So how are we doing now Acedia :3a

[adharma]

UM SO THE UNEXPECTED HAPPENED I WAS PRETTY SURE THAT ACEDIA WOULD INTERNALIZE LUKE EVENTUALLY AS A MORAL CODE BUT INSTEAD DERA JUST SLID RIGHT IN THERE FOR NOW. Things could always change but essennnnttttiiiaaalllly he meant it. He's going to trust in Dera because wow he completely fucked shit up this past turn. It also includes being generally more honest and less of a liar -- s...so in some ways less nice. But it was like Dera cleared a major stage of roadblocks all in one go, so.

HE'S KIND OF IN SHOCK MODE RIGHT NOW and he'll eventually come around to . . . just. Feelings overload and then go hide in Katou's head until he is ready to face the world and will eventually remember that Dera said he loved him and oh god and what is this and how do I positive relation and jhgjfdvjhfadvjhafdhfhbfda.


rrreeeeverrrsseee...................... (and if you have any specific questions/parts of the relationship you wanted expanded ask '-'a cos that was an overview i guess)

[righthandsmoke]

There was definitely a second there where Dera just assumed Acedia had decided he sucked and was horrible. And another minute where he worried Acedia had gotten some final "NOW I AM A CRAZY ASSHAT FOREVERRRR" memory. But even then he wasn't going to just up and give up because Acedia's too much of a centerpiece in his life now.

The second he figured out it was because of a game just erased any negative feelings that might've been allocated to Acedia. (tho he will still be angry that Ruby was betting away pieces of themselves. FOOLS :U) But really he just . . . can't know that and place any blame for the things Acedia did on him. It's all the damn personae >( SO HE WAS VERY HONEST when he said they were okay.

re: love. It is a . . . kind of love? But it's sure as hell not the traditional ideal of it. It's unhealthy and crazy and built on obsession and codependence that's been helped along a lot by Allen cleaning up the room that represented their relationship a lot. \:D/ STRONG FEELINGS ARE HAPPENING YES but Dera is not the best person to actually identify what feelings he is feeling.

Now talk to me about his relationship with Dera vs the one with Luke :|a

[adharma]

. . . hm. It's harder now because before it was very much like. Dera was Ruby, his grounding in team and there was a weird dependency on that and the worry that he'd fuck up or their past would catch up with them, etc. Dawn was very much about like, independence from that, being bullheaded, making Acedia see things, a lack of that worry. And Acedia was making headway in realizing the 'miserable heaviness' that is 'love' with luke fon fabre, lol.

Bbbbbuuuuuutttt now Dera has become his own bond in a way. It's 'Wrath' and while Wrath-with-Ruby is part of that there is also just. A strong Wrath bond. And then an obligation and connection of that. A huge stabilizing feat, I guess. So now his relation with Wrath is basically working on Wrath assss a pillar in a way. Closer to an absolute bond for him haha.

Dawn is up in the air because the while Van thing was just a mess of them not understanding each other and Acedia feeling miserable about their relationship :|a GOOD TIME TO USURP MY MOTHER BOYFRIEND'S POSITION!!!!

What does Dera honestly think about the whole. Relationship . . . with Acedia . . . (And Acedia's uh. General. Promiscuity. . . I guess)

[righthandsmoke]

He doesn't really think about it [the promiscuity and sexual aspects] . . . He does get some jealousy feelings if he dwells on it too long, but he also places a great deal of trust in Acedia to not, like, SLEEP WITH NII!!! :U idk he is pretty content with it. It feels easy and relaxed to him, but that's also because he . . . doesn't think about it. '-'a Would always like to have more attention from Acedia though.

Most negative feelings are also covered up by the cleaning Allen did in his heart. He is at times a little uneasy . . . He isn't so dense that he thinks Acedia manipulating him is okay, but he's also able to look past that to how much Acedia IS trying. :|a And how much Acedia does seem to value and care about him. So he's aware there are less than stellar aspects, but they aren't a relationship-destroying concern right now.

Does Acedia think Dera is idealizing his view of the relationship too much '-'a Does he even care?

[adharma]

. . . He would actually understand it more if he was back to "use Dera cos he is easy" but . . . he doesn't think about it much. And he wouldn't care too much anyway. His closest relations in canon are people who follow him anywhere so '-'

Does Dera wish he knew anything about Acedia? Or what does he want more insight into I guess . . .