IT'S BEEN A MONTH

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QUESTION MEME ASK ME SHIT AND THEN I ASK YOU SHIT IN RETURN AND IT'S AN ENDLESS CYCLE OF JOY.

Because you know I can't shut up.

I play Acedia (Mukuro Rokudou) and Aeris. Annnnddd I NPC Dream, Three, Beauty and Cheshire Cat!

And sometimes I mod, when I'm bored of throwing spitballs at Zazzle.

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SOOOOOOOOOO..............

Dera is still solidly the person most important to Acedia's Rubyidentity and then really the Acedia identity. It is kind of totally weird because Acedia always feels PUSHED to be more direct and truthful with Dera just because Dera takes the with-holding so personal! But it's really. fucking. difficult. For him. It is like MOUNTAINS of difficult. BUT HE TRIESS HARDDDD...

After the whole lolololstrangling thing he was PRETTY WORRIED THAT DERA DIDN'T LIKE HIM ANYMORE. Like, the thought of "he'll break up with me/broke up with me" was not even so much of the dating but it was symbolic of their relation as a whole for him so it was like ... pretty stressful! Feels bad, man.

So this thread they just had was like a re-assertion that Dera still likes him and it wasn't even just likes him '-' there was that weird. . . thing. . . WEIRD FOR HIM because he doesn't expect other people on Ruby to have that reaction since they are always like NO ACEDIA DON'T KILL PEOPLE JEEZ it always makes him feel a bit aloneish in that regard. So it was a weird feeling of feeeelllinnnngggg a level of camaraderie he isn't used to. Heartwarming murder ;D And really the idea of the childhood experience and desire to wipe people off the face of the earth is one of the building blocks of Kokuyouism so it was just a faint feeling of what he misses most about being Mukuro as well.

STILL KIND OF UNSURE WHERE DERA SITS IN REGARDS TO OTHER THINGS but less worried that Dera will completely dump him as Acedia.

reverrrssseeee

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Scowl is PRETTY DAMN SURE he wants to break up, but only in the sense that he doesn't want to have sex with Acedia anymore. Or at least not until he's considerably more improved. He really isn't sure how to bring that up though, so it might just stay unspoken until it comes up in a thread again \:D/

He's definitely disappointed in Acedia over the strangling thing, but he's blaming Luke a lot more for that happening. Acedia is crazy and working through being crazy so he gets a liiittle more leeway. And talking with Yukio has drilled in that he shouldn't just give up on Acedia when he IS trying as best as he can. So he's definitely solid on wanting to continue to be emotional support for him! And their latest thread reminded him how protective he feels about Acedia--what with Acedia's crazy child torturing famiglia. :U

STILL MY THING BUT WE CAN'T TOUCH ANYMORE :U :U :U

Would Acedia care if Dera started dating someone else?

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Only if they broke up first ... LIKE HILARIOUSLY!1 If Dera changes behaviour but doesn't actually break up with Acedia... Acedia gives no fucks. Dating has very little to do with actions for him so much as a claim and a closeness :B And he is very . . . uh. Open . . . relationship sort of way. Like Acedia's way of dating people is that he likes them more and will admit to liking them more . . . more than actual other stuff. So if Dera breaks up with him and then dates someone else it is a WELL I DON'T LIKE YOU ANYMORE AND I LIKE THIS PERSON BETTER which is . . . like. . . . yes . . . upsetting. But if it is like WELL I DON'T WANT TO HAVE SEX OR DO CUDDLES OR WHATEVER ANYMORE but I won't actually say we're broken up he gives no fucks cos clearly it means caring is still happening duh. Since "dating" has taken on a symbolic meaning yes :B

Does Dera have his eye on someone else . . .

[righthandsmoke]

Nnnnot really since he really is only close with like. One person off of Ruby right now . . . It could go there with the right steps, but idk about right now. :|a

Recommend me some movies.

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THE WAVE it is a German film fictionalizing a psych experiment about autocracy!

FIVE THINGS DERA WANTS!1

[righthandsmoke]

Oh gosh that movie :Da I got to watch an American (or dubbed??) version of it when my middle school history class covered the holocaust. IT WAS GOOD

1. For Acedia to not be so crazy anymore
2. For Luke to not disregard people's feelings for him anymore
3. For Ruby to feel less divided (to him)
4. To make Konatsu proud
5. To feel like he's the most important anything to someone again

Acedia's five favorite pastimes.

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Chatting philorealism with his no feelings buds, spending time with Ruby, gardening, spending time with Dera, Luke and Yukio, and fucking off.

STATE OF THE LEADERGIRL AND HER PERSPECTIVE ON HER TEAAAMMMMmmm

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SHE IS PRETTY GOOD. Still frustrated with Aather in general as she perceives it to be which really is just making her want to become more self-reliant and to make sure Turquoise is self-reliant. (In the sense that they don't need to depend on other teams if something terrible happens.) She's trying to learn how to fight and some medical skills so that she feels more like she's contributing to the team and also to further Turq's self-reliance. Right now the closest thing they have to a medic is Rolo who is . . . Rolo. :Da

As for her thoughts on Turquoise, she's SUPER PROUD. They are all fighters and strong-spirited and both attached and independent at the same time. She's always pleased with how well the team meshes; since she and Ikki arrived they've never really had a member that didn't fit in. She loves that even the distant members of the team make an effort to be involved with the team and have developed attachments to the team in general. And she just genuinely adores each of them individually.

Same question for Acedia

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Unnnhappy.... but it is like . . . AS ALWAYS WITH HIM KIND OF TRIPLE SIDED sigh.

On one hand! He is essentially doing "better". There has been a pretty large internal shift going on even before the strangling incident. Basssically since he stopped taking his memories like 10 days ago or whatever lol. The beginnings of an internal system of some kind have been in the making.

Onnn the other hand! He's pretty much in the shit hole about Ruby. He's convinced Dera broke up with him, but is also buying into the IF IT ISN'T SAID IT'S OKAY LA LA LA delusion, but he also kind of knows it's a delusion so erugh. He's okay with Luke and Yukio as both have established themselves as "comfort points". He realized he has no idea about Konatsu ever, like, on an actual "Oh I don't . . . know or understand him at all . . ." which just makes him feel a bit lost and he is also 95% sure Konatsu hates him or would rather he not be around. UNSURE ABOUT CELTY but not negatively. Annnddd he has no idea what Oz is talking about half the time and so he is just like is Oz dumb or is this one of those Acedia don't get normalcy things!1

Bbbuttt on the other other hand he's also like. Well, Dera must care about me somewhat so it is okay, that can be salvaged by ignoring the issue. Also still loves Ruby forever and ever and he's gettttinnggg more. . . distanced . . . from Mukuro. It's a pretty big schism, now. So "Ruby" will always be a positive even if he feels shitty. Somehow. Convoluted :T

THERE ARE A LOT OF OTHER THINGS... SORT OF... bleugh. But those are the big ones, I think.

... how about for dera...