adharma: (tsuna'd)
Acedia // Mukuro Rokudou ([personal profile] adharma) wrote2011-04-10 11:58 am
Entry tags:

• hilarious childhood whatever









This issss a lotttttttt. I might do a proper write up on it later. Or an essay since lolruby.

Anyway. It's basically a dump of feeling trapped, hurt, powerlessness, terrible things, inability to escape or find a better situation, acute knowledge of what the adults are doing and why, knowing that not only does the family not value you but people outside the family want you to die to and more terrible things. And terrible things ...

• Mukuro knows where he came from in both the sense of like concrete details (Estraneo, the fact that he used to live in Italy, etc)
• Can guess as to why he chose his name -- at least the 'Mukuro' part.
• Knows the names and faces of every single adult in his family :)
• Hates/fears them all.
• loooooottttttttssssssssss if feelings of distrust and dislike towards adult figures and people in power
• general dislike and distrust of everything and everyone
• I guess some crazy boost
• on the other hand this is a real feelings boost because it's before he just systematically shut down all of his feelings but smug bastard
• a huuuuuge amount of rage
• a frillion and one negative mafia feelings
• some personal space/touch issues - not really noticeable in general but he'll keep his bubble
• he's better at illusions :Db

some other stuff too I'm too derpy to write it all right now. The more important part about this memory is that he doesn't know how it ends. He knows his situation changed a lot from childhood to when he was a teen, but not how. He hates the family in his memory and he does think about offing them or at least escaping/changing the situation but that's not a concrete thing. He hasn't absolutely decided to kill them all yet. So this is a big dump of childhood and feelings without that special edge of psychosis.