adharma | QUESTION MEME

o-oh gosh okay. Hermana… never gets canon romance or anything. What she gets is canon CONFUSED FEELINGS-- she doesn't feel exactly sonly towards her son and it comes up in a few skits that she… would not mind dating him. Or kissing him. Or going out with him. '^' But she deflects very hard off of herself so there are very few moments when she pushes the whole "what about me?" thing in any sort of romantic way, because it's really obvious to everyone that he's fixating on another girl. So she does, once or twice! She's regained those memories and like… there's one where she's just like I don't really want to talk about the fact that you are crushing on another girl and he just keeps pushing and pushing and she just gives in because she loves him! Whether it's romantic or not, she just loves him more than anyone and wants him to be happy even if it's at her own expense.

Add to this a fine mixture of lots and lots of casual statements that imply a very appearance-focused view of what love is, a healthy dose of people going "ew!" whenever she brings up the fact that she thinks she might be crushing on Ruca a little bit, and a party member espousing a terribly unhealthy idea that women don't need jobs because they can just get married so she doesn't have to think about the future. (I don't think that's what he actually meant, but that's how she took it and walked away before he could correct himself.)

Basically, while her canon is really healthy at love and romance, it's not healthy at love and romance for Hermana. Any even remotely healthy ideas about romance come entirely from Aather, which is a damn shame, because she's definitely got a whole lot of very confused feelings jumbled up inside her that just kind of leak out into conversation sometimes.

ACEDIA and romance :D because I am a winner

He doesn't have any real idea of "romance" or "love". Relationships are based either as unreliable or absolute. He has attachment issues. I guess . . . it is difficult for me to discuss romance because he doesn't have an idea of romance. He can sort of guess what others invest in it, but it is just silly and like wrapping paper to him.

8|a

So are you gonna post that essay you wrote 'x'

Wrapping paper works! And actually gives me a really nice visualization of it.

um. '-'a yyyyes but not any time in the near future. but if I fix it up tomorrow I will show you anyway or like… plurk clique it to people who want to see or something because seriously 4000 words oh my fucking god.

Are there any games you want to run/play but think would be really hard/impossible in journalrp format?

Toilet tag . . . .

if Hermana wasn't Onyx what Personae would she patron to!

…no wait what what is toilet tag omg.

UM. Probably Brother Deer, because she could animalform? But she hasn't bonded with him especially or anything, so maybe someone else. She might have tried for Three or something…

What about Aeris?

It's like tunnel tag? So when you get tagged by whoever is it you stand there with your hand out '-' and people can unfreeze you by flushing the toilet ...

Hmmmmmm. I don't know if she would. She hasn't bonded with any personae and her wants are pretty specific.

How about Ginshu '-' if she could?

Ginshu would probably bad decision and contract with the Masked Lady, because playercest means she doesn't really interact with Kiriko much even when hiatused, and she finds the Masked Lady refreshingly familiar. :'Da Other than that… Mother Goose '^' who is the closest she comes to liking a Persona.

Has anyone asked yet about what went into Alexiel's placement? I know that was something you mentioned in passing as a kind of "I have no idea where to put her" thing.

I WASN'T SURE WHERE SHE WOULD GO and carnelian had slots and it was like could she go here :|aaaaaaaa and then we decided to go with yes. NOT A LOT OF THINKING JUST '-' "can we do this, ok"

Have you considered making a second personae . . .

I've considered it in the sense of like… I had other ideas before I settled on Kiriko, but they were more suited to darker games. (I was initially going to app a baku, for example.) But I'm actually really happy with what Kiriko does in-games and outside of games, and at this point I'm just really happy with having her. I think if something plotty happened to make her disappear, I would try to create a new Persona because I have found I love playing one, but overall I'm really happy with her. '^' ♥ I get to have stupid goofy bird antics threads with her as well as running games; I am a person of simple desires.

Does Dream have a realm, and what is/what would it be like 8D

He does! The "stable" part of his realm is the love hotel/workshop. But outside of that it is a but like . . . Zathura mishmashed up with a blackhole and floating debris of other desires :'D;;; it's a real mess. If we get to the right places in his personal story it might become explorable, but it also might not depending on how things go.

Do Kiriko and the Masked Lady share a realm OR IS THAT SPOILERS....

N…no that is Masked Lady and Kiriko keep meaning to talk about it and make basic decisions like "do we even share a realm" but then end up talking forever about ridiculous fandom AUs instead 8D;

we are highly intelligent and focused people

Can I ask about Cheshire's realm, too, or is that spoilers…

A mix between traditional Alice in Wonderland and American McGee's alice :')

ANY TEAM CONSIDERATIONS FOR YOUR APP IN THE POOL '-'?

Nope. :'D I keep thinking about it but like… I think even the teams that would be "worse" for that app in terms of support would still be interesting to play with? Actually, the app I had in queue previous had more of a consideration, in that if I hadn't withdrawn I probably would have sent in a notice like "would probably end up ragequitting Iolite a la Riku, so you might not want to put him there," because he has a strong internal sense of "this is how a team should work," that Iolite's attitude would grate on. But I think c-current character in queue doesn't have as much of an internal sense of what he wants and thus could the…oretically work on any team.

But I keep thinking about it as I try to get my thoughts in more coherent order, and I will definitely swing something the way of the mod email if I come to any conclusions beyond "…nope I would still love it," or think it would drastically impact my play. oh god the sad thing is how much thought I had actually devoted to this before you asked the question. I don't actually know, though, I've never played this type of character in a team-y setting oh godddd.

If you did end up apping Laura to Aather as well, what kind of team would you like to put her on? I think you've talked about this before, but I'm curious as to whether your thoughts on the matter have changed and what considerations would go into it, etc etc.

HM. I thought TE might be good for her but I also feel like they might be too hands off and orderly. Though I am not sure any team has the brutal invasiveness she really needs tbh! She will pick up a lot of whatever team she would be on too. Or whoever threaded with her most in her early days. Laura really needs someone who would MAKE her be her own person. Like, not tell her what to do otherwise she'll just accept it pretty easily.

:9 how many words is your essay now?

STILL 4700! I haven't actually added anything because I keep babbling on plurk or at Bonten instead, orz. But I might do that today after I get some holiday stuff done because ugh ugh ugh holiday stress can surely be solved by essaying.

NGL, a lot of your Laura talk fascinates me in terms of Aather and team because Ginshu had some similar problems but on a less severe scale? Like, she also has issues of being a tool and not her own person and internalizing that, and early Coral was fantastic for that but most of her push these days comes from outside the team. *_* So.

Have you talked about Alexiel in terms of personhood/how she sees herself, yet? :3c

:3c I LOVE YOUR GINSHU TALK REALLY for probably similar reasons. PERSONHOOD!!!

Nnnot yet. She is a bit of a puzzle really. I AM STILL FEELING HER OUT esp given LOL IDENTITY in Angel Sanctuary and how she and Lucifer are so narratively obscured in a lot of ways.

IT IS HARD BECAUSE REALLY so much of her identity is hinged on Rosiel. PRETTY SURE "I love Rosiel" while not romantically inclined is also pretty possessive in terms of self identity. In a way "I love Lucifer" is not.

TELL ME MORE ABOUT GINSHU AND TOOLINESS AND CORAL AND PUSHES

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