IT'S BEEN A MONTH

[adharma]

QUESTION MEME ASK ME SHIT AND THEN I ASK YOU SHIT IN RETURN AND IT'S AN ENDLESS CYCLE OF JOY.

Because you know I can't shut up.

I play Acedia (Mukuro Rokudou) and Aeris. Annnnddd I NPC Dream, Three, Beauty and Cheshire Cat!

And sometimes I mod, when I'm bored of throwing spitballs at Zazzle.

Comments

[toolate]

What excites you about your characters' current lives/development rn?

[adharma]

MUKURO IS BECOMING AN REAL PERSON! Which is hilarious and kind of o god what am I doing but it is super interesting and just kya. And Aeris just went to the dark side ;D So there is a lot that is sort of rolling around for both of them.

DOES DRIFT EVER FEEL LIKE PREY.

[toolate]

Yes, too often. Yesterday Edmund's cats wanted to chase him, it was terrible. He has had a lot of moments where he's just like RABBIT MOMENT, RABBIT INSTINCTS SAY RUN +_+ but he's also trying to stop thinking like that because he's not a real rabbit!!1

Is Mukuro afraid of anything?

[adharma]

Yes and no? Like. There are things which make him viscerally uncomfortable. But he's pretty much destroyed/had his fear center uprooted so it doesn't quite work right and even when he does interact with things that he would/is "afraid of" it doesn't really come out as fear.

Would you app a second?

[toolate]

I would! It's just a matter of finding the right character, especially since I would probably drop if I couldn't maintain both characters or play the other one as often as Drift. Discrepancies in activity bother me (unsure)

Do you have any plans for thirds?

[adharma]

I do. They're secret.

How is Drift different from cannnonnnn?

[toolate]

THE WHITE RABBIT IS COMPLETELY INSANE. Like, I kind of always knew that? But one of the recentmost chapters was just. congratulations, you are completely off the deep end! The White Rabbit has always been teetering on the edge of just completely losing it. He is utterly and blindly devoted to a being he both loves and hates with all of his being because he doesn't know what else to do and it's really hard and his obsession causes him to actively police himself. He refuses to indulge anything remotely positive or allow him to feel anything "positive" ("positive" is "death" and "self-sacrifice") and remains in a perpetual state of being lonely, stressed, and angry. He forced himself into a corner and just kept hurting himself and. here he is.

Drift, by contrast, is . . . very sane :'D Objectively, too. Where the White Rabbit DOESN'T CARE what you think and will go off and hallucinate things, Drift is extremely attentive to details and those around him. He's extremely in touch with reality (to a slightly excessive amount, which makes him cynical in certain cases) and refuses to deal with matters that are too troublesome or are theoretical. He's very pragmatic and deals with the now! He's much more open with people (which is what his tsun is an indication of; less tsun, less open) and more aware that he wants to be a part of these social circles and be involved :I As a result, he values people a lot! Even if he doesn't like some he can't value them . . . less, if that makes sense. NO ONE IS LESS IMPORTANT, which is one of the reason he has trouble with "KILL YOUR TEAM OR KILL ANOTHER TEAM" questions because he's like |( but we're both important!! And since he is figuring out that there are people he's okay with (likes), maybe I can talk to them and get advice (sometimes), which is ... completely different from the White Rabbit :'D He is also hilariously unoccupied and uncommitted most of the time, which, yes.

I mean, they do have plenty of similarities! But Drift is vaguely the direction the White Rabbit would have developed if he were given the chance to (hence why I locked the memories which caused the White Rabbit to start broing it up with the bad decision dinosaur).

Why Mukuro!

[adharma]

WHY MUKURO WHAT!11

[toolate]

WHY DO YOU HAVE SO MUCH MUKURODERE

[adharma]

BECAUSE HE'S A LOT OF FUN TO PLAY. He's also a character with like 50 different character paths and 5000 layers made up by me. The more I play him the more I am positive I am "ooc" in the way that Amano would never do what I am doing \:D/;;;; I think it comes down to flexibility tho. I CAN BE CRAZY. I CAN PRETEND TO BE SANE. I CAN BE A SADIST OR A MASOCHIST!1 etc....

how tall is the white rabbit...

[toolate]

TALLER THAN HE SHOULD BE. He's like 5'6" and yet is somehow the third shortest of the "main" cast (the March Hare and Alice are shorter).

When you do/plan trauma games, do you look for a sort of balance or try to stay mindful of certain things? I always wonder if those are difficult to plan since everyone seems to like trauma games but is there ever too much trauma for a game? idk does that even make sense

[adharma]

I am pretty hyperaware of trauma levels. Like . . . I FEEL THAT THERE IS WHAT I CALL THE RTD SCHOOL OF DRAMA where it is like "GOSH THERE NEEDS TO BE TENSION -- KILL PEOPLE!" And it essentially makes trauma . . . uhm, normal or regular or just overdone to the point of numbness. Which means it sort of becomes moot, for me. It is like when characters have been in Camp too long and are like sigh sexswap sigh degaging sigh zombies. When as a gamerunner you want people to be like O GOD DEATH D| or O GOD MAIMING D| to some extent each time. Instead of like . . . w-well I know no matter what I do it is doom so it doesn't really matter :/. So I also try to always have a Good Option or an out or the Illusion of Hope :') in my games as well.

do u like trauma

[toolate]

y!! I don't enjoy it like, ESPECIALLY but yeah it is one of the types of games I have the most fun participating in. Though, I try to be mindful of how much is too much for my character(s) ICly because otherwise things will probably end up unfun in the long run.

Your favorite kinds of games to play in? Your characters'?