adharma | I DON'T CARE IF I JUST DID ONE SHUT UP

:3

:D

OK SO.

NII IS. . . COMPLICATED. PRE-SEXY... thoughts ... (unsure) There was a certain amount of like . . . Acedia figured Raven was in a parameter. A game playing parameter. He sort of saw the like. WELL THIS WILL BE A CHALLENGE and that mixed together with his impulsive....ness... to sort of break things/dominate them if he could. Essentially when it was like HUH CAN I INTIMIDATE and the answer was no he thought it became interesting.

And Raven kneed him in the nuts that one time and of course that's ~~sexy~~ another interesting thing. In some ways Acedia doesn't process getting beaten very well. He just sort of parses it as a movement in a game. The fact that Raven was interesting -- out of the normal for the average Aatherian -- and had thoughts/conversation he didn't mind was worth sticking around anyway. Acedia enjoys chatting and he enjoys people who are a bit odd. But the added WELL. I GUESS I DID NOT TOP THAT TIME fueled him to. try. harder.

BUT THE OTHER THING is really he's not . . . super comfortable with being topped or engaging in intimacy with people. Like he'll do it if he feels he knows them to whatever his comfort level is. And if he's in control or has provoked it he likes it a lot better. I GUESS THE BOTTOM LINE IS he has control problems and Raven definitely pushes those. Pretty hard. But because he's a bit of a whackadoodle Acedia doesn't take that as like wow that was uncomfortable I shouldn't do that. As again, I'LL JUST DO IT HARDER. Or I DEFINITELY WASN'T UNCOMFORTABLE. It loops back into his DON'T BACK DOWN. It's the same kind of feeling that got him in trouble with Riful, really. But this is where the whole, bad end handjob scenario came/happened from. The beginning of wow i should not do this sort of skipped over logic and looped back into power/dominance issues/control whatever and. yes.

Oh and I guess death threats and knives are kind of a turn on sometimes and powerplay is definitely a turn on EXCEPT WHEN IT ISN'T?!?!?!1

. . . and then Raven became sexy! Which. Acedia hated. He probably gained more negative feelings from that then he had for Raven before. Because he doesn't . . . because it's more out of control feelings than it was before? Acedia has pretty low "wow that is sexy i should tap that right now" feelings, despite having an active sex drive (to... an extent). So gaining them was like 6_9 terrible. Control issues. etc. Wanting things like that is kind of difficult for him.

AND THEN THERE WAS SEX. And it was the kind of sex he likes (...sometimes). But he was also with that feeling offff.... HE HATES THAT HIS SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP WITH RAVEN IS BASICALLY "Well, Raven felt like it so he's allowing all of this to happen". It is distinctly "I am under this guy's thumb" and he loathes it. But he also kiiinnnddd of likes it? But he loathes it. So it's a mix of enjoy/hate/like/loathe with a side of sex :|b

i guesssssssss i'll ask for a reverse.

OZ IS PRETTY SIMPLE RIGHT NOW. OZ IS TEAM, COOL.

He does (did?) think Oz was a bit emotionally weak and needed the sappy prop up. Mostly because he does remember his earlier interactions with Oz and bullying him :'D but has just. Re-remembered them not as they quite were (l-lol). So Oz is in the same category as Jacuzzi "nice, kind of squishy, probably needs some team support, whatever."

I guess he would also bang Oz but that's not part of the question.

IS YOUR REVERSE JUST AS EXCITING AS THIS!1

For luke

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･'(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)'･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*

. . .b. . . baby what is that face

... hello...

REAL ANSWER COMING IN A BIT

but i may or may not have invited vriska to a game of murder that might involve you.

... [goes to find]

so

i was on my phone

trying to reply with one eye and my thumb

and i hit the button that changes my text to japanese when i went to try to make a =3 face

and there is a ^_^ face option in the japanese so i hit it

and suddenly i had 100 face options!!!

so i picked the biggest one cuz i was too lazy to find a relevant one

Definitely not the question because Oz wouldn't bang you.

BUT GOSH HE IS SO RIDICULOUSLY HAPPY THAT HE IS SOMEHOW BACK IN GOOD STANDING WITH MUKURO. I mean he suspects it is probably due to heart game antics. Which is why he might not mention it to Dera for a while. But it is mostly MAGICAL SECOND CHANCE I WILL DO ALL I CAN NOT TO FUCK THIS UP. This does combo effort with Oz just generally being more secure in himself and understanding people a bit better now so it's a huge confidence boost and he will do all he can to get a good grounding and understanding of Mukuro so he knows where he can trust him and on what. Because he does still recognize that Mukuro has his danger moments so there will never be complete 100% faith but he figures he can probably feel him out to the point of understanding him such that he knows when he does and doesn't have to worry about Mukuro shanking people or something.

Do you want a question back.

im offering vriska murdergames.

:o?

We need a spray bottle for you.

make this icon a reality

Do you want me to threadcrash and be your conscience.

I kind of doubt much has changed, but I want to ask anyway, since I missed your last question meme. For Mukuro. And/or Aeris, I guess. :B

Edited 2011-07-24 15:32 (UTC)

god ok luke. this is just like. I AM NOT SURE WHERE TO BEGIN SO I WILL JUST PICK SOMETHING AND TALK ABOUT IT.

SOooooooooo. Dawn has pretty much broken Acedia of a lot of his (at least Dawn-specific) physical contact >:Ts. Handholding, hugging, whatever. He isn't likely to initiate them -- unless there's a specific. Reason. Or whatever. But he'll reciprocate and so forth. HE IS STILL UNSURE IF HE LIKES THEM lol. He has convinced himself it is part of the relationship equation and yes sometimes that oh he is doing it for Dawn. His self-delusions remain hilarious.

FEELINGS...WISE... in some ways he is unsure what to do if something isn't asked of him. Cos then he has to admit/act on his own. So like if Dawn pushes him for feelings that is a lot easier (even if he is tsundere and rrrgt and bleh about it) than to admit it himself. On his own. BUT THIS IS THE HILARIOUS THING THEN ABOUT ~LOVE~. Which, Acedia isn't really on at all what is love, etc. But since Dawn isn't going to ask it of him he . . . isn't sure what to do with it. It's just. This thing. And WHAT DO WITH IT?! But the fact that it bothers him means something is up. And he kind of knows something is up. And that bothers him even more :D!111

His identity/self issues aren't tied to Dawn like they are Wrath. But . . he would probably miss Dawn if Dawn was booked or whatever. He has gotten used to sleeping with Dawn. He will probably evolve to latching onto Dawn after waking up ... l-like a kid would with a teddybear \:D/;;; and then maybe eventually move on to just, being reassured by someone being there. Maybe.

IS MOSTLY OVER HIS ASCH AND GUY ISSUES as they related to Luke. Doesss have some deep buried fear about Dawn leaving him for them but it is superinactive and won't become relevant until he deals with his Ruby/Kokuyou problems again.

uhh OH YEAH SO WHEN HE WAS THINKING ABOUT SEX WITH DAWN he thought of, first, bondage sex because that seemed. Least messy feelingswise and also he would then be in control more. But then they had not bondage sex and he was like o okay that was actually. Not. Bad. Even if it was full of feelings. For him. . . . likes cuddling . . . after . . . sex . . . but hates admitting it. oh yeah I guess. Like. He feels a lot more secure with Dawn than he thinks he is. Plans on putting it in sometime, but no lie gets distracted mocking Dawn sometimes. He also does like getting topped but definitely still thinks of this as him topping Dawn all the time.

what elseeeee.

Really did just want a boypile :( why so dumb boyfriends.

STILL WON'T GET NAKED FOR YOU UNLESS YOU REALLY WANT IT . . .

idk is there anything i missed you wanted to know and you should reverse me.

http://www.dreamwidth.org/go?redir_type=threadroot&journal=aather&talkid=134844367

HE HAS VERY LITTLE OPINION ON MITCHELL AS A PERSON no lie. But now his interest has been piqued. And Mukuro's hobby is destroying lives. One of his favorite things is when people claim some kind of control or goodness and then watching it get ruined \:D/ He will be content to just try and place things around Mitchell to watch him ruin his own life (and then mock him for it), it's true.

r...e...verse...?

WE'RE TALKING ABOUT NORMAL STUFF NOW (unsure)

Maybe I will just tell Konatsu on you.

STUPID LIBERTY!!!!!!11111

Liberty is his closest friend! Acedia really. Enjoys Liberty a lot. At this point if Souya left, Acedia could still balance out okayly because Kaworu and Rolo are around. He trusts Liberty, which is weird and crazy and big. And would shank 400 bitches for Liberty \:D/

NOT A LOT HAS CHANGED EXCEPT THE 'I WOULD LIKE TO BANG YOU' thing. Though now that he is more settled and more like himself it is less of a pressing issue. And. Now he would honestly like to do Kanji so I guess \:D/;;;

THERE IS NOT A LOT TO SAY HILARIOUSLY sob. Cos Acedia is just dere and trusty for Liberty I guess.

NOT REALLY. WE SHOULD THREAD MORE.

Mukuro is kind of /headtilt about Itachi's illusion seeing through skill.

Aeris just likes him as she generally does.

What good will that do

We should, yes. :>

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