He needs to sort them out. But the feelings he got from the Van convo were . . . weighty. In an unpleasant way. It was a bundle of both jealousy/oh no im rejected/sort of just a weird obligatory . . . thing? Which would be I guess in the end a sort of set of 'love'. SO THAT IS HARD. Like, grappling with 'love' in general would set him back weeks ololol.
And then there was the idea of his place with Dawn being in danger :|a Which he doesn't really . . . get. And it's strongly related to the first bundle of feelings but it's alarming :|a
In general he finds a lot of these really terrible and unwanted.
Uhhh and then the game and such. And after the game he pretty much just has . . . all the secondary feelings he doesn't have on top of the love/insecurity feelings from before. So it's all been compounded by shame/guilt/embarrassment/regret as well as personal distrust.
Even if he doesn't feel comfortable with Dawn he wants to feel secure. Or the other way around or something. It's possible he caught on a little bit to how desperate Dawn begged him and that's tipped him into the not feeling secure.
Uhh. But yeah :|a a lot of . . . things that he wants or feels he's lost or will lose coupled with actual guilt.
A lot of bad feelings, I guess in a way, but they're actual normal-y human feelings to some extent.
Does Luke ever realize how messed up/abnormal he is . . .
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He needs to sort them out. But the feelings he got from the Van convo were . . . weighty. In an unpleasant way. It was a bundle of both jealousy/oh no im rejected/sort of just a weird obligatory . . . thing? Which would be I guess in the end a sort of set of 'love'. SO THAT IS HARD. Like, grappling with 'love' in general would set him back weeks ololol.
And then there was the idea of his place with Dawn being in danger :|a Which he doesn't really . . . get. And it's strongly related to the first bundle of feelings but it's alarming :|a
In general he finds a lot of these really terrible and unwanted.
Uhhh and then the game and such. And after the game he pretty much just has . . . all the secondary feelings he doesn't have on top of the love/insecurity feelings from before. So it's all been compounded by shame/guilt/embarrassment/regret as well as personal distrust.
Even if he doesn't feel comfortable with Dawn he wants to feel secure. Or the other way around or something. It's possible he caught on a little bit to how desperate Dawn begged him and that's tipped him into the not feeling secure.
Uhh. But yeah :|a a lot of . . . things that he wants or feels he's lost or will lose coupled with actual guilt.
A lot of bad feelings, I guess in a way, but they're actual normal-y human feelings to some extent.
Does Luke ever realize how messed up/abnormal he is . . .